Another wonderful nightmare

The title is a sarcastic representation of what living with a narcissist is like.

I'm in a tough place. This narcissist is a pretty great father but once he directs his attention my way the story changes. Things get tossed around (like the cookie pan I left in the oven) and I get nasty grimace. I try to remind myself that I deal with him for the kids but I can feel my self respect slip through my fingers little by little everyday.